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as i walk alone in the cold rain,
my mind drifted away to the past.
to what we used to be
to the secrets we used to share.
how i wish you were here with me,
sharing the umbrella
in this lonely yet cold night.
whispering sweet nothings in my ear
i miss you so much.

Sunday, July 31, 2005

so happy tis few days....

28/07/05 my graduation day.....

very happy to see all my friends on tat dae... but can imagine anot... my shoe spoil lor... so paiseh... luckily after e ceremony le.... then go clementi to buy shoe.... hahaha..... then we go sing song... n its e 1st time mi n kk go out wif jiwei weilun they all.....

29/07/05 after one yr.....
(actually should be 30/07/05)

Teo PaPA call mi round 1am... sae very sian wan mi to go out... i very surprise he call mi at tat time lor... n it e 1st time i see him after my attachment at ASM lor.... then of course muz go la... so long no see le.....actually e two of us nv really tok when i having my attachment there... after my attachment dunno how or why then we got tok... then we tok n tok until goin 3am then i realise he's totally different frm wat i thought of him... deep down he is so mature lor.... n wat he told mi makes mi really respect him lor..... dunno wat to sae to express m feeling now... juz hope tat we n johnny can meet up more often...

12:15 AM
alone* in the rain;

Friday, July 22, 2005

at my office now.... hav been workin here for 2 weeks le... time really past so fast..... e ppl r quite good lor... especially my supervisor... she really a very nice person.... hmm.. but she says i very quiet lor... nv tok one.... but i told her... i not quiet one la... onli tat i dunno wat to say .... for those who noe mi well should noe tat i'm tat kind of pplwho will tok when i dunno u well.... i really dunno how to start a conversation... n hav tat problem of approaching ppl i dunno n tok to them.... my supervisor says she got feedback from my other colleague tat all of them say i very quiet one... nv tok at all one.... hai~~~... i will try to tok more... but MUZ giv mi more time....

8:35 AM
alone* in the rain;

Monday, July 11, 2005

pls lor... stop goin around telling ppl tat u all treat everyone e same.... pls think urself.... we dun expect u all to treat us like how nice u all treat others... but can treat us more like ur friend anot..... not those hi bye type....

n to sumone: dun onli cum to ur friend when u need them... think of how ur friend will feel like... u need them u will tok to them or chat wif them... when u dun need them... u will not even bother bout them...... if u r being treated like tat.... how will u feel.....

12:28 AM
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Sunday, July 10, 2005

tomolo i will be starting my work at my new company le...
but i'm still feeling very moody....
m i making a fuss over a little thing anot?? i dunno...
arghhhh... how to start work wif tis kind of feeling....
how?? i feel tat i like no friend like tat....

*sad*

11:48 PM
alone* in the rain;

Saturday, July 09, 2005

i m so sad n disappointed n angry... but more sad n disappointed... actually i nv cry one.. i sit there think n think getting more angry so i called ru to tok to her... han is juz laughing n i told him i m serious lor... allof u make mi feel like an idiot... then later serene cum out n i tell her wat i m thinking then realise chao is behind mi... then i tell him "y u cum out.. i dun wanna see ur face" n "y cannot like let mi noe u all watch le.. make mi feel like a idiot keepin asking..." he sae i nv sms him... but e fact is i already tell them to watch together 2 weeks ago... 2 week ago leh.... not juz a few days n i got angry.... then all go wif their friend.... feel so sad... its always like tat... they wun even care or remember wat i sae... my tears onli started to flow after i told him these... i was feeling so terrible....

do u all noe how it feels like when ur friend treat u like tat... try asking them to watch e past 2 weeks n no one bothers bout u?... my other friends wanna watch ... so more i tell them mi n my np friends sae wanna watch so will watch wif them n i rejected watching wif them... end up wat happen?? all of them went to watch wif their friend.... end up i will not be able to watch tat movie liao ma?? *sob*

u all muz be thinking tat i m anyhow "fa pi qi" again rite?? i m feeling so sad... all watch le n no one bother to let mi noe tat they watch le..... n i hav been lookin forward to tis weekend to watch tat movie wif them.... n this is e ans i got frm them.... letting mi noe wun took up much of ur time rite?? this shows tat they dun really treat mi as their friend lor.... n han still sae "u also can go watch urself one... lol " i reject my friend as i tot will be watching wif e np ppl... n he still sae tis... seeing these makes mi even sad n angry.... i try getting u all to watch together n like no one even bother bout mi... u guys can be so good to each other.... we e girls not ur friends meh? can't u all treat us like u all treat each other? maybe dun need to be exactly e same... half of how good u all treat each other will be very nice le.... maybe cos u all think tat we all very attitude?? if tats e case... "i'm sorry"

xiangjun ask a qns todae " we r juz acquaintance or good friend" to think tat i got e feeling the r all treating us as acquaintance... tats wat i feel... thinking of tat makes one so sad n disappointed...

they wun understand how i feel as i think they will think these r nothing lor.. y make a fuss bout it... i dun care u all think i crazy or wat or over such a little thing n "fa pi qi".. but this is how i feel...

to chaotian: i shouldn't hav shout at u saying "i dun wanna see ur face"
to serene, xiangjun, leslie: thanks for trying to console mi... thanks

12:08 AM
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