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as i walk alone in the cold rain,
my mind drifted away to the past.
to what we used to be
to the secrets we used to share.
how i wish you were here with me,
sharing the umbrella
in this lonely yet cold night.
whispering sweet nothings in my ear
i miss you so much.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

i m so sad n disappointed n angry... but more sad n disappointed... actually i nv cry one.. i sit there think n think getting more angry so i called ru to tok to her... han is juz laughing n i told him i m serious lor... allof u make mi feel like an idiot... then later serene cum out n i tell her wat i m thinking then realise chao is behind mi... then i tell him "y u cum out.. i dun wanna see ur face" n "y cannot like let mi noe u all watch le.. make mi feel like a idiot keepin asking..." he sae i nv sms him... but e fact is i already tell them to watch together 2 weeks ago... 2 week ago leh.... not juz a few days n i got angry.... then all go wif their friend.... feel so sad... its always like tat... they wun even care or remember wat i sae... my tears onli started to flow after i told him these... i was feeling so terrible....

do u all noe how it feels like when ur friend treat u like tat... try asking them to watch e past 2 weeks n no one bothers bout u?... my other friends wanna watch ... so more i tell them mi n my np friends sae wanna watch so will watch wif them n i rejected watching wif them... end up wat happen?? all of them went to watch wif their friend.... end up i will not be able to watch tat movie liao ma?? *sob*

u all muz be thinking tat i m anyhow "fa pi qi" again rite?? i m feeling so sad... all watch le n no one bother to let mi noe tat they watch le..... n i hav been lookin forward to tis weekend to watch tat movie wif them.... n this is e ans i got frm them.... letting mi noe wun took up much of ur time rite?? this shows tat they dun really treat mi as their friend lor.... n han still sae "u also can go watch urself one... lol " i reject my friend as i tot will be watching wif e np ppl... n he still sae tis... seeing these makes mi even sad n angry.... i try getting u all to watch together n like no one even bother bout mi... u guys can be so good to each other.... we e girls not ur friends meh? can't u all treat us like u all treat each other? maybe dun need to be exactly e same... half of how good u all treat each other will be very nice le.... maybe cos u all think tat we all very attitude?? if tats e case... "i'm sorry"

xiangjun ask a qns todae " we r juz acquaintance or good friend" to think tat i got e feeling the r all treating us as acquaintance... tats wat i feel... thinking of tat makes one so sad n disappointed...

they wun understand how i feel as i think they will think these r nothing lor.. y make a fuss bout it... i dun care u all think i crazy or wat or over such a little thing n "fa pi qi".. but this is how i feel...

to chaotian: i shouldn't hav shout at u saying "i dun wanna see ur face"
to serene, xiangjun, leslie: thanks for trying to console mi... thanks

12:08 AM
alone* in the rain;